This the fourth article in a series reviewing Brian Houston’s latest book ‘Live Love Lead’.
Brian Houston’s meltdown and addiction to sleeping pills
On page 91 of his latest book ‘Live Love Lead’ Brian Houston writes the following:
“Finally, I reached the point where the cumulative impact of all the stress, strife and struggle became too much for me. Over the next twelve years, after that initial conversation about my father with George in my office, I found myself in a downward slide towards depression, traumatized by the experience years earlier and internally declining as I tried to look after everyone except myself.”
The stress was the stress of dealing with the fall-out from his father Frank Houston’s sexual abuse of little boys.
Frank Houston founded Hillsong Church in Sydney in 1977.
Are we sympathetic?
Brian in his book ‘Live Love Lead’ is trying to make us feel sorrow for him.
But more Brian Houston’s latest book ‘Live Love Lead’ is a letter to the Australian Royal Commission, the Courts, the NSW Police and to the Authorities about how great and saintly Brian Houston is, how he’s suffering unfairly for his father’s unfortunate crimes and how he’s really tried hard to help others.
Somehow the boy victims fall outside “Pastor” Brian Houston’s great circle of love, goodness and charity but nonetheless despite his failings and foibles, The Great Brian Houston is a innocent as a new-born lamb.
From when Brian told the Royal Commission and the Media everywhere “Hillsong and me personally have no moral and legal responsibility to help Hillsong’s boy victims in any way”, Brian lost all our sympathy.
No one cares about Brian except Brian, his wife Bobbie, maybe his spoilt rotten kids, and maybe some of “Brian’s Hillsong team”
No one cares about Brian except Brian, his wife Bobbie, maybe his spoilt rotten kids, and maybe some of “Brian’s Hillsong team” who will either jump ship or fear about losing their jobs if it all goes down.
I don’t think the Hillsong cult will fall apart when Brian is charged and convicted, although these events, which will take years, will severely damage and cripple Hillsong church.
Hillsong’s international growth will be greatly affected although there’s always plenty of fresh innocent meat out there for any cult to devour.
Brian becomes addicted to sleeping pills
Brian details how he became addicted to sleeping pills
On page 92 of ‘Live Love Lead’ Brian details how he became addicted to sleeping pills
I’m not surprised by this.
Observing Brian at the Royal Commission in October 2014 live on my laptop at my farm I noticed Brian was heavily medicated on day one.
Brian was having trouble staying alert and awake in the witness book.
At times Brian seemed to be even falling asleep.
On day two his psychiatrist altered the medication and he was more alert.
Brian details that after a build up of immense stress and a sleeping pill addition, one night in Noosa Queensland Brian had a mental and psychological meltdown
On page 93 Brian details that after a build up of immense stress and a sleeping pill addition, one night in Noosa Queensland Brian had a mental and psychological meltdown.
The question arises “Why is Brian sharing such personal things to the world”.
Here again this is not Brian trying to be on a reality TV show but Brian trying to gain sympathy votes from anyone who will listen.
To me this kind of stunt by Brian is psychologically and emotionally immature. These kinds of things shouldn’t be shared publicly.
No wonder Bobbie was looking stressed out and tired in the recent Sydney channel nine TV interviews.
Bobbie may be next in line for a melt-down.
Brian is diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)
On page 94 Brian writes “Eventually, I was diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), and other doctors suggested that I might continue to have panic attacks for the rest of my whole life, but I was determined in my heart that was not going to happen”.
Then on pages 94 and 95 Brian does a rave about how in just a few weeks he bounced back and all is Ok.
Then he raves about how he can help others and offers heaps of advice and heaps of scriptures about how others can get through tough times like him.
The tough times are only just starting for Brian Houston
Sorry to be the bearer of bad news but the tough times are only just starting for Brian Houston.
There’s The Arrest. The Trip to the Police Station. Fingerprints. A Possible Strip Search. Multiple Court Appearances. The Appeals. Explaining all this to The Media. Explaining all this to Hillsong. Explaining all this everywhere Brian goes. Possible Jail Time. Two to Three to a Cell. Jail Food. The dangers of having a shower in jail. Having poo and urine thrown at you because your jail companions don’t think a Pedophile Protector is different from a Pedophile. Conjugal visits for Bobbie with intimacy on a mattress in a cold bare jail room. Visits from an emotional Bobbie. Jail mates interested in your anal virginity. Having to sleep with one eye open. Being scared of washing in communal jail showers. Being afraid of bending over and picking up the soap if you drop it in the jail communal shower.
Brian wishes it all will go away
On page 95 Brian writes “While we wish it would go away tomorrow, most burdens don’t just disappear in the morning”.
One thing I find endearing about Brian is his candidness and earth-shattering honesty.
Yes Brian, its not going to go away in a hurry.
You did the crime and your going to have to do the time.
I don’t know how Brian would manage in jail.
After all he has lived like a prince and king on this earth.
Lunches at places like Catalinas on the water at Rose Bay Sydney- one of Australia’s premier restaurants.
Holidays in Positano Amalfi Coast
Holidays at Positano Italy with his close friend- the wife basher, serial adulterer and self-confessed sex-addict “Pastor” Pasquale “Pat” Mesiti.
The coward who bashed his second wife Andrea in the head last New Years Eve while he was ‘heavily intoxicated”.
“Pastor” Pasquale “Pat” Mesiti the patron saint of prostitutes.
“Pastor” Pasquale saw prostitutes on his Hillsong credit card circa 2000 and got caught out. Sacked and disgraced, Brian’s disciple and prodigy Pat Mesiti the come-back kid, made a second come back but got caught out again recently by his second wife Andrea for seeing loose ladies again on the Gold Coast near Brisbane Australia.
For the next ten pages from page 95 to 104 Brian shares about how to cope with trauma and gives lots of examples and scriptures to explain how to get through the tough times (like Brian has been through) and more than survive- with Christ’s strength and help.
Brian talks about ‘his robust faith in Jesus’ and how he’s not very patient in airport check-in lines and airport security queues to Bobbie’s constant embarrassment.
After all why should The Great Brian Houston wait for any one.
Brian details all his naughty little tricks in milking Qantas, Qantas Executive lounge, Qantas airlines and every airline and airport in the world for every freebee, perk, short-cut, upgrade and luxury he can get.
Brian talks about how his robust Christian faith will see him through and that all us pluggers and battlers should emulate The Great Man Brian Houston King of the Christian Prosperity Gospel Crooks.
All good and fine Brian if you can get it but how is Brian going to go in the future?
Time will tell.
The sin of pride. King Nebuchadnezzar.
Like Nebuchadnezzar in the Holy Bible the great Brian Houston may have to eat grass for a while.
At least until God hears these words from the Great Brian Houston’s mouth:
“I am no longer the Great Brian Houston.
I have sinned greatly O God in Heaven.
Behold I will now sell all my possessions and give them to the poor.
I will place the boy victims of my father the Frank Houston the founder of Hillsong Church high above the earth in a seat of honour in a high tower of Hillsong Basilica and feed them grapes and the finest foods.
I will fill their pockets with the gold and treasures which I stole from the Temple of God.
I will do all these good and worthy things and then God in Heaven will restore me once again to being The Great Brian Houston of Hillsong Church.”
The humbling of King Nebuchadnezzar
“32 and you will be driven away from mankind, and your dwelling place will be with the beasts of the field. You will be given grass to eat like cattle, and seven periods of time will pass over you until you recognize that the Most High is ruler over the realm of mankind and bestows it on whomever He wishes.’ 33″Immediately the word concerning Nebuchadnezzar was fulfilled; and he was driven away from mankind and began eating grass like cattle, and his body was drenched with the dew of heaven until his hair had grown like eagles’ feathers and his nails like birds’ claws.”
The Great Brian Houston’s response
Where there’s life there’s hope but the jury’s out on whether The Great Brian Houston will be able to swallow his pride and really see the error of his ways before Almighty God.